A Glimpse into What Was Coming
“Psychologists tell us that when people face constant LONG TERM stress and uncertainty, their bodies learn to live in survival mode. They stay alert, tense and exhausted. Always waiting for the next thing to go wrong. Even in moments of calm, their minds don’t relax. It’s not because they’re overreacting, it’s because their nervous system has forgotten what SAFETY feels like.” This is what happened to me over the last two decades and it became one of the reasons I started this blog. Long term trauma should not be taken lightly because it’s long term effects will destroy us. And I have proof which I will share with you as we delve into the first and second tragedies. I recently had an appointment with a prominent Neuro-Psychologist who performed a brain scan on me. He deals with trauma and the brain. I began noticing after my first two tragic events my body began a pattern of just quitting on me and I would feel like I had the flu or I would be throwing up with absolutely no energy. Each time this would happen my whole body would stop functioning for three days. At a conference I asked him personally if this could be due to serious long term trauma. “Absolutely”, he said. So, I set up an appointment with him to have a brain scan. As we watched the scan he explained what all the peaks and valleys were all over the screen. He said, ”He could immediately tell that my brain has not recovered from the trauma because it has not had time to since these tragic events were so numerous and would happen one right after the other. He explained that the high peaks revealed that my brain was constantly in flight or fight mode due to so much tragedy and that the only time it is supposed to be in that mode is when I find myself in serious danger. So, my brain cannot calm itself down. He reiterated that if he can’t fix that with breathing exercises or different Holistic approaches he will not be able to fix the Valleys in my brain that cause serious fatigue, physical illnesses, lack of energy and the destruction of my immune system. He did tell me that “I had a strong brain”. I asked him what that meant and he told me, “You’re very resilient.” In which I replied, “I do not feel resilient.” Do you?
I hope this information helped you as much as it helped me. Understanding how long term stress and trauma serves as a weapon against our bodies ravaging our brains with illogical fears, anxiety and worries during every minute of everyday relieves the vulnerability in me because I finally unearthed the reason why my body reacts the way it does. So…..NO! I am not too sensitive. NO! I do NOT lack faith! NO! I don’t worry just to worry…..NO! My brain is constantly trying to protect myself so I go into survival mode because my brain is telling me that’s where I need to be. I have no choice. It’s a terrible place to be BUT now that I know why I am have hope that we don’t have to get stuck there. We can’t get stuck there because long term trauma depletes our immune system and can easily cause terminal illnesses. That is a medical fact. But we’ll dive into that when the time comes during this blog journey.
Keep the hope alive! Without hope we have nothing.
Sandy
_____AND NOW……A GLIMPSE INTO WHAT WAS COMING……
So……..let’s start at the very beginning of this journey'.
This was THE LEGAL CASE that initiated the demolition which
eventually led to the complete destruction of this fairy-tail place
called Sandy Land” leaving our entire lives in ruins and our family ripped apart.
Oddly, we never saw it coming. We were completely caught off guard simply because my deceased husband made the mistake of trusting the legal professionals on the other side of the courtroom who decided NOT to operate with integrity and respect but instead chose to lie and deceive in order to simply win a case. Are you wondering if the lies and deception came from the defense lawyers. NO! It came from the prosecutor’s side.
Surprised? Don’t be. I will tell you why this should not surprise you in a minute.
